Lately I have been thinking. Lately I have been thinking about the world and where it's headed. Lately, I've been wondering whether bringing children up in this world would be worthwhile. Lately, I am disappointed with so many things. Lately, I'm not sure how people look themselves in the mirror when everything that flows from their mouths is sheer ignorance.
I am angry. I am irritated. I am disappointed. I am in awe. I am existing on the hope that things may change. I am a woman who knows my strengths and my limitations. I am a bond-servant of Jesus Christ. All I am.. is nothing. Who I am.. is nothing.
Why is it that people find such worth in emptiness? Who are we trying to please? I can tell you from experience that you won't find ONE person who won't let you down. It's in our nature to be that way; self-seeking, self-centered and fickle.
This is not meant to be a slam on humanity, or a depressing look into where my thoughts have been lately. I am simply venting, like so many people do, about the state in which I find my generation. I am sick and disgusted with people misrepresenting the God I serve. I am sick of the liberalism that infects every faction of life in this country. Call me whatever you want; narrow-minded, judgemental, mindless. None of these things offend me, nor do they describe me.
I watched a movie last night that was stupid from beginning to end. The previews started the drivel and it didn't end until the movie was over. I sat there wondering where this life is headed. Where people can sit on their couches and shake their fists at things they don't know or understand. Where our soldiers are mistreated and forgotten because this war was a "mistake." Where did people go wrong? When was a human life, whether the life be a soldier or one of an unborn child, become so inconsequntial and unimportant? I am frightened of bringing children into this world.
I am not ignorant to my limits. However, I am not on some mission for MY voice to be heard. I have nothing important to say. All I want is for my life to be seen as an example. For people to look at me and say, "I want what she has." THIS is making a difference people, not protests in the middle of crowded streets. Not shaking your fists at your television set without even the faintest knowledge of what's ACTUALLY going on in the world. My parents immigrated here from the middle east. You want some questions answered, ask people who were THERE. Take your documentaries and burn them. This is ignorance. Speaking against something you don't know.
"The mark of an immature man is that he wants to die boldly for a cause. The mark of a mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one." - Unknown -
I'm not sure who wrote that quote. I read it at the end of The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Sallinger. I wonder how many people will attempt to die boldly for a cause they don't even fully comprehend. This is an obvious exemption for our soldiers who are called to this life. Without going in to specifics (in the interest of time and other things), this is where I stand.
My name is Laura. I am a married twenty-something and am very content with my life. I have a wonderful husband and a supportive, loving family. I serve my God with as much humility and love that I possess in this body. I am in no way perfect or right. My morals are based on Biblical truths (for all you "Christians" who think the Bible should be loosely translated, shame on you), this being the road-map for my life. I am not ashamed of being a Christian. I am not afaid of people looking at these statements and thinking that I am stupid. I am not swayed by "logical arguments" that the Bible isn't the Living Word of God; in fact, I'm infuriated by those statements. I have no need in my life for people whose sole purpose in life is to pick fights and change my mind. Being a mindful and respectful person is a key to sustaining a lasting friendship. I have respect for all people and their beliefs, even if I don't agree with them. So don't try to change mine.
1 John 1
That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we looked upon and have touched with our hands, concerning the word of life— the life was made manifest, and we have seen it, and testify to it and proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and was made manifest to us— that which we have seen and heard we proclaim also to you, so that you too may have fellowship with us; and indeed our fellowship is with the Father and with his Son Jesus Christ. And we are writing these things so that our joy may be complete. This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us
1 comment:
The part that really grabbed me was your question: Is it worthwhile to bring kids into this world?
One thing I have always held against God is the question, "If you knew it would look like this - if you knew any one person would suffer as much as people have suffered - why did you create?"
And then I realized that even though I've held that question against God, I've never for more than two days considered not having a child. Something inside of me thinks that it's better to create than not to create - or else thinks that there is something flawed with the question itself.
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