Sleep can be so elusive sometimes. Today is one of those days.. I can't quite seem to grasp it before it slips right through my fingers. My husband is sleeping, probably will be for at least another two hours. I am perpetually awake.
Do you think in your sleep?
I do.
It's strange to wake up with an idea for solving a problem at work. Or some other strange occurance of realizing what I forgot at the grocery store. Not sure if anyone else does that, but it's a very odd occurrence. I suppose this post's beginning lives up to my "daily ramblings" blog title. One's mind isn't ready for a serious post when one has been awake since 6 am for no apparent reason. Well.. most minds aren't.. but mine never really slept.
My last blog was angry, to say the least. I couldn't seem to shake that feeling. Another example of my nocturnal thoughts. I went to bed upset by that stupid movie and woke up with those thoughts in my head. I have this unsettling feeling that I have allowed myself to be construed as something I am not. Case and point: I wouldn't usually write such a bold blog as my previous one. I am not ashamed of my faith or what I feel, but I tend to shy away from being so blunt about sensitive issues. I demand respect for my beliefs and morals, so I give it in return. Calling people stupid for what they hold most dear in their hearts, is not anyone's right. I know people who take it upon themselves to not only slam the opposition, but to also make their own points seem superior to the opposition. Mental, moral, political superiority.. my, my.. aren't you the smart one.
I have little patience for stupidity. This being an understatement, I should probably explain myself. I am a woman. Much of my fellow female race has allowed themselves to fall prey to being "girly." Now, before everyone gets upset by this statement, I will explain. Being "girly" is so different than embracing femininity. I cannot for the life of me understand why women use themselves in a sexual way to achieve status. This is not necessarily bound to the act of sex, it's more meant to say, "think for yourselves!" Having sexual intimacy is a beautiful thing, and unfortunately in this day and age, it has lost it's beauty and sacredness. Sexuality (and it's current perversions) is another one of those issues that I am careful about on most days.. today is one of them. It's too early to tackle all my issues with that one.
Seasons come and go. Summer has whispered it's last breath.. the leaves are changing colors and everything is beautiful right now. All aside for the hideous noise coming from the road construction. Some countries consider subjecting a human being with a single, repetitive noise a form of torture. I no longer wonder why. I love this season. It's an explosion of color. I look around my apartment at my fall decorations and wonder at what an Amazing God I serve. One with such a Creative Hand.. colors like this never were so beautiful.
My mind is scattered this morning.. forgive the shifting shape of this blog. For now, I sit here and wait for my husband to wake up.. maybe I'll watch my wedding DVD. It reminds me of many blessings I have in my life. It also reminds me where to be watchful. Weddings can bring out the best and worst in people. I learned that in an interesting way.
Today is just one of my daily ramblings..
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